And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss Never thought we'd have a last kiss Never imagined we'd end like this Your name, forever the name on my lips So I watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are Hope it's nice where you are And I hope the sun shines And it's a beautiful day And something reminds you You wish you had stayed You can plan for a change in the weather and time But I never planned on you changing your mind So I'll go sit on the floor Wearing your clothes All that I know is I don't know how to be something you miss Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long No matter what I say or do I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone You hold me without touch You keep me without chains I never wanted anything so much Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain Set me free, leave me be I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity Here I am and I stand so tall I'm just the way I'm supposed to be But you're on to me and all over me You loved me 'cause I'm fragile When I thought that I was strong But you touch me for a little while And all my fragile strength is gone Set me free, leave me be I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity Here I am and I stand so tall I'm just the way I'm supposed to be But you're on to me and all over me I live here on my knees As I try to make you see That you're everything I think I need Here on the ground But you're neither friend nor foe Though I can't seem to let you go The one thing that I still know Is that you're keeping me down You're keeping me down You're on to me, on to me and all over Something always brings me back to you It never takes too long But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn't understand, So hard to see myself without him, I felt a piece of my heart break, But when you're standing at a crossroad, There's a choice you gotta make. I guess it's gonna have to hurt, I guess I'm gonna have to cry, And let go of some things I've loved, To get to the other side, I guess it's gonna break me down, Like falling when you try to fly, It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, Starts with goodbye. I know there's a blue horizon, Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me, Getting there means leaving things behind, Sometimes life's so bitter sweet. ________________________________________________________________ Take time to realize Oh-oh I'm on your side didn't I, didn't I tell you. Take time to realize This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you But I can't spell it out for you, no its never gonna be that simple no I can't spell it out for you. If you just realized what I just realized then we'd be perfect for each other then we'd never find another Just realized what I just realized we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now. _________________________________________________________ Oh baby i need you to see me, the way i see you lovely, wide awake in the middle of my dreams And all i see is your face all i need is your touch wake me up with your lips come at me from up above ________________________________________________________ Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind. You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye. _________________________________________________________ I could go back to every laugh But I don't want to go there anymore and I know all the steps up to your door But I don't want to go there anymore Talk to the wind, talk to the sky Talk to the man with the reasons why And let me know what you find I could stand up and sing you a song But I don't want to have to go that far and I I've got you down, I know you by heart And you don't even know where I start Talk to yourself, talk to the tears Talk to the man who put you here Don't wait for the sky to clear I've watched you so long screamed your name I don't know what else I can say __________________________________________________________ It's been a while. So much going on with flying home, work, Christmas, and just life in general. I have so much to say but I'm not sure where to start. I guess I'll go in reverse order by starting with today and working my way back. Today (December 26th) has been long. I did ALL of my Christmas shopping today since we will be celebrating on Tuesday instead of on Christmas like we usually do. I spent some time with the Tangen side of the family today- not very long but it was still good to see everyone. Christmas- this year just doesnt feel the same. It was a quiet Christmas morning with only one little boy running around the house. We did stockings like usual and then had breakfast together. Some of my favorites from the morning (other than the ones from POD) After Christmas morning we went to my Grandma Skeie's house- coolest Grandma EVER. I got to see all of my beautful aunts, uncles, and cousins- and their significant others :) It was a great day. Courtney and Clint also joined us :) Christmas Eve- BUSY DAY! I met Kyle for lunch at Noodles- missed that place! Then took a nap, got ready for the Candle light service at my church and then went back to my mom's for soup and games :) Courtney and Clint joined us for this too! I also received a package on this day: It was a mug with candies :) My all time favorite candy, and a TEXAS mug. I LOVE IT
Thursday. I came home! I have been waiting for this day for a long time. Everything feels right being here. It didnt feel like Christmas until my plane landed on Minnesota soil. I gave out a big sigh of relief. ahhh. There's a lot to update about the home life but for everyone's sake I'll keep it to myself for right now until every thing is sorted out. Hopefully that will be soon. I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas, I know I did! Well I've officially started packing- Phase 1 is complete (throw everything you might pack in a pile) Next comes folding everything, sorting the things that I wont actually bring and then do that one more time, then start organizing everything into the suitcase :) This month has been insanely busy- working all the time. Check out the bottom right- 14 hours of overtime this week- Can't wait for my 5 day vacation! No time for the Gym lately which is depressing but hopefully after the new year I'll get back into my routine.Only 3 days of work and then home- I cannot wait!
Oh, and p.s.- Kyle, He doesn't read the blog. But if he did I wouldn't mind- I would tell him to his face lol! I have one DUMB ASS roommate... I'll explain more later.
One week! One week until I'm home sweet home. I cannot wait, it's so close that it's almost worse waiting for it. I'll get started on my packing now so it feels even closer :)
My days back home are quickly filling up with activities- I really hope I have time to do everything that I want to do! Snowmobiling, snow ball fights, Christmas festivities, seeing my family and friends and just being back in the familiar life that I'm used to- UHH Can't wait! :) So I have the night off... I havent had a night off since technically Sunday- feels great to have a break and get myself organized at home. I have some major decisions to make in the next few months and I'm not sure which way to go with any of them. I'm praying for wisdom and favor with every decision that I have... Good luck to me. |