This made my night :)
I found some time to take some photos. Some of my nieces and nephews and the others are from our drive to Winthrop to celebrate Kristin's life. ENJOY




My life is so much better (and might I had interesting) than a fairy tale... Princess's and happily ever afters are for teenagers...

How can I complain?
"You eventually need to end the chapter of the past and what never will be and turn the page to the future and what can be"
"God has you in Heaven, I have you in my heart"

"Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch
But wouldn't it be beautiful"
If you learn to take what life gives you in strides and take the good with the bad, you will one day realize that the good days make the bad days worth fighting through.

Life is amazing and I am constantly surprised with everything that gets thrown my way. Some bad, but mostly good...

Today... was good :)

"So far away from knowing where I am going
I am trying hard to find out who I am
They all see that I don’t know what I am doing
I say they don’t hardly understand
...You give what you give cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won’t take you
And they want you to be what they make you
...Everything seems perfect
Everything’s okay
And it will all get better now..."

When you lose something,
it's all that you want back.
You waited patiently.
But it don't work like that.

When you lose someone,
the first thing that goes through your head,
is if you run fast enough,
you just might catch up.
But it don't work like that.

You just gotta watch it fly.
Stand there on the side line.
Wanna swallow up your pride.
Know it's gonna be alright.
Wishing when I close your eyes
With a kiss goodbye...

Well the hardest part,
Yeah it hurts so bad,
is when she spreads her wings,
but it'd be a selfish thing,
to try and hold her back,
but it don't work like that.

You just gotta watch it fly.
Stand there on the side line.
Wanna swallow up your pride.
Know it's gonna be alright.
Wishing when i close your eyes
like a kiss goodbye...

When you lose something
It's all that you want back.

You just gotta watch it fly.
Stand there on the side line
Wanna swallow up your pride,
know it's gonna be alright,
wishing i could close your eyes,
with a kiss goodbye...

Like a kiss goodbye.

From Train's, "Soul Sista":

I'm so obsessed,
my heart is bound to beat right out my untrimmed chest
I believe in you...
and I'm always gonna wanna blow your mind're the only one I'm dreaming of
You see, I can be myself now finally,
in fact there's nothing I can't be
I want the world to see you'll be with me

(I love feel good songs that have so much meaning)

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not compromising my promise to myself regarding my year of "singlehood" but with recent events I've looked at my life in a different light. So here it is:

As some or most of you may know my friend & Coworker, Kristin, suddenly passed away on Sunday, January 23rd. She was only 27 and had plenty of life left to live. I could go on about how amazing she is and how much I learned from her in a short period of time but I don't think I would stop typing.

So this is why I bring it up. I'm 25 (will be 26 this year). That's one year younger than Kristin when she found out about her brain cancer. As far as I know she didnt know that she had it until a few months ago.

This is my point: Life is never guaranteed to us. I could die today, tomorrow, or even a week from now.

I've always believed that I was put on this earth to have kids (lol) and to be married. It's something that I've wanted since I was little- as I'm sure most of you feel the same.

For the past month (or so) I've been told that I needed to work on myself because I've had all of these issues, I would some what agree. I know that I've jumped from relationship to relationship and I don't want to dive into someone else's arms to make me feel better at this point. But I know that I can be an amazing person, even more so when I'm in my element. My time in North Carolina showed me that I could never be happy there because its not what I wanted. This made me go through a lot of depression- a feeling I have never felt before. I felt crazy at times for the way I felt and the things I did which forced me into this year long commitment. I believed the things I was being fed (i.e. I need to work on my issues) which again, I know there are things that I can work on inside myself but there are also things that can be solved while in a relationship.

But now I've been thinking about life and how short it is- I know the right person will wait but I'm not sure that I want to wait. I want to love someone like I know I can- I'm great at it (when I'm where I want to be).

You might be lost with all of my babbling right now. I know what I'm trying to say but I'm not sure that it's coming out correctly.

In a nutshell- life is too short, take chances, do what makes you feel great, don't regret your decisions, love unconditionally, say your sorry every chance you get, tell someone you love them every chance you get, don't go to bed angry, and live every day like it could be your last.

I hope I'm not confusing you right now, I'm just typing out my thought process from the last 24 hours.

Take it for what it's worth :)

Spent the evening with my girl Cass-a-frass- nothing better than belting out "break up" songs in the car... The feeling sucks but it gives me hope that one day  I will feel that kind of love again. Everything happens for a reason and everyone comes into your life for a season. Be thankful for the time you have and realize what they were meant to teach you.

I'm thankful that I'm capable to love someone as much as I have... :)

Can't wait for our monthly girls nights!